In the few years leading up to 2014 I spent a lot of time searching and studying life and everything under the sun. This year I came to the conclusion that “ok, so there is all this stuff, ideas, religions, ways to love and live etc etc, but who do I, ME, who do I want to be?” And I focused on that.
I’ve come to a place where no matter what sounds realistic, no matter what sounds better or worse for me, I’m going to go down the path that serves me and the people I love the most.
And I think I realized I need and want to seek less attention from the world, I just feel like the things we do, the things I do, to gain attention, have often times been damaging in one way or another.
Can I just be?
I think so.
Can I trust myself to be, and take care of the real here and now that matters in the long run?
2014 taught me, or began a true teaching, of how to be content and thankful for what I have. It taught me that I can strive for more, but that I am only able to do what I can, and to be proud of what I can do and manage.
Everyday I used to look for something more, wanted to be more than I was, now I am beginning to love what I have 8)